As I sat there for a few minutes, listening to the sea gulls squawk and the motor boats move by, I noticed a little gold square attached to the bench. "In memory of..." A small description underneath said, "Loved God, her family, her community."
That little memorial was just what I needed today. When this life is over and all is said and done, what would my little gold square say? How will I be remembered?
I want a lot of things out of life. I like to drink of each day deeply, savoring each moment and never skipping a second of the experiences this world has to offer. Whether it is the sound of my children's laughter or the cool wind on my face as I stare at the vast ocean, I soak it in like there will never be another day like this. I find myself cataloging moments like a librarian would file away those old yellow cards in the card catalog. I think I started really living in the moment when Josh was diagnosed with heart disease and I have never stopped.
But in all of my daily pauses, sometimes I forget the most important thing. Am I doing what really counts? This afternoon, I sat down with Josh and we talked through a lot of things that are happening in our world. We boiled it down to a short list... what has God asked us to do? And which path do we take to be completely obedient? It looks like that path might not be what I expected, planned, or even wanted ultimately. But I choose to walk that road. This is why...
Someday I want to be remembered like this: "She loved her Jesus, her husband, and many children." If my life reflects that, it was worth it all. We're reordering our priorities a little these days. It's time to step back, take an assessment and decide if we are on the right course or if it's time to steer into a new adventure. I don't know how it will turn out, but I think for the first time in a long while, I am at peace down to the tips of my toes.
There is nothing better than that deep, life giving peace that comes only from King Jesus.
So friends, that is my life today. What about you? How do you want to be remembered?